Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Honesty Vs. Being walked on!

I have had this reoccurring problem my entire life!  I know that I am in control but, how do I let this happen?  Not only once but, over and over!!!  I let people walk all over me! In my jobs, my home, pretty much anywhere...  Is it that I'm afraid to confront them?  Usually when it happens, either I don't notice it right away or, I can't find the right words in time to explain my feelings in a way that is tactful. So, most of the time I don't say anything at all.  Really, it's just about being honest!  Why is it so hard for me to be honest when people do or say something to me that I do not like?  Personally, I appreciate people who can find the words to be honest about how they feel! So, why then do I find it so hard to do myself?  I am finding it's easier with my close friends and family but, strangers and my employers are really what is tough!  Well, one obvious reason with employers is that you need a job! If you tick them off with your honesty, it might end up biting you in the tush!  I know though, there has got to be a way with finesse of words, to stand up for yourself while not poking the bear!  I am obviously, just not that good at it! I have an aggressive personality but, when it comes to this, sometimes I just don't want the hassle standing up for myself might cause!  Unfortunately, by not speaking up I cause storms within myself anyway! I did read a blog once that said maybe it's me that just "thinks" I'm being a victim!  Because, I always expect people to walk all over me it happens. There may be some truth to this but, still to this day I have not found a way to fix it!  It also seems that people in general would rather be lied to about certain things; then why I ask, do they ask questions they really don't want to know the answer to?  This is just an area I need to explore further!  Maybe with a better vocabulary and some daily affirmations I can feel more confident in standing up for myself!  Please, please if I ever say or treat you in a way that is offensive or hurtful, say something!  I may get butt hurt at first but, in the long run I will be great-full!  I just need to give others the same respect! If I feel I am being used as a doormat then it is unfair to me and them not to say something!  

My daily affirmation:
I am a strong, good person and I have the right to be honest about my feelings!

If you have any ideas or share a similar belief or experience about honesty please share!!!